Was at a dinner event when I noticed that I was having a hard time avoiding and stepping around the stuttering landmines.
I’ve been avoiding avoiding more and more over the past few months. This has been a huge change for me obviously. Before, I was more quiet, would avoid speaking situations, or would substitute a lot while talking.
So at this dinner party, I was feeling like I didn’t want to stutter as much. So I fell back on my old techniques. Except they weren’t working for some reason. I couldn’t get into that usual covert flow. It was hard to substitute since I haven’t been doing it that much. I thought this was actually kind of funny. Turns out if you don’t use it, it starts to fade.
It ends up being easier to just stutter and try to say what you want than fumble around for words you can say that you can’t quite remember.
Hello. I stutter. 